Wednesday, July 18, 2012

What took me so long!!!!

This is not so much a blog post as it is an update.

I am sorry I have been missing in action a lot this year.

This has been one of the best years I have had in a long time.  And I was almost afraid to post that, you know.  Worried about the fates, but life is what life is and happiness seems to be spilling from every pore on my body.

Changes have been all around me, some have been losses, like my grandmother and my beloved Maggie Mae.  Others have been uplifting, like Italy and feeling relatively normal with little pain.  Others have brought me so much joy, that I can barely contain myself, like going forward with my photography and renovating my house.  Still others have been about deeper connections with friends and family and realizing that this silly wall that was around me, was nothing more than a useless piece of crap.

And the most surprising of all my changes, is actually me.  I feel happy, like really happy!  At 44, I have finally become comfortable in my own skin and what is more fantastical is that I have finally found my stride, my place, my reason and mostly my joy!

I don't feel like the woman I was a year ago. 

I don't know what has happened, or maybe I do, I have finally accepted me for me, got on with life, stepped out my own self imposed confines, dug deep to find my confidence and plowed ahead.

And you know what is next on my roster?

Well I am going to try and open an online shop for my photo cards and calendars, although I still have that niggly thought of "are they good enough" but I keep being virtually slapped around by so many unbelievably supportive friends, that I am just going to take the chance.

One of my recent photo commissions!
And secondly, well I have finally decided that next year, which marks my 10th year with my better half, is the year that this Average Girl, is going to take the plunge and walk down the aisle and say I DO at the top of my lungs to that good looking better half of mine!!!

Me in a year, only far more chunkier!!!
Yup, head first into a free fall is where I am going and I have to tell you that sky diving into the unknown is bringing up the most beautiful scenery ever!  And you know what I have to say about that: Good lord, what took me so long!

Until Next Time.