Wednesday, July 18, 2012

What took me so long!!!!

This is not so much a blog post as it is an update.

I am sorry I have been missing in action a lot this year.

This has been one of the best years I have had in a long time.  And I was almost afraid to post that, you know.  Worried about the fates, but life is what life is and happiness seems to be spilling from every pore on my body.

Changes have been all around me, some have been losses, like my grandmother and my beloved Maggie Mae.  Others have been uplifting, like Italy and feeling relatively normal with little pain.  Others have brought me so much joy, that I can barely contain myself, like going forward with my photography and renovating my house.  Still others have been about deeper connections with friends and family and realizing that this silly wall that was around me, was nothing more than a useless piece of crap.

And the most surprising of all my changes, is actually me.  I feel happy, like really happy!  At 44, I have finally become comfortable in my own skin and what is more fantastical is that I have finally found my stride, my place, my reason and mostly my joy!

I don't feel like the woman I was a year ago. 

I don't know what has happened, or maybe I do, I have finally accepted me for me, got on with life, stepped out my own self imposed confines, dug deep to find my confidence and plowed ahead.

And you know what is next on my roster?

Well I am going to try and open an online shop for my photo cards and calendars, although I still have that niggly thought of "are they good enough" but I keep being virtually slapped around by so many unbelievably supportive friends, that I am just going to take the chance.

One of my recent photo commissions!
And secondly, well I have finally decided that next year, which marks my 10th year with my better half, is the year that this Average Girl, is going to take the plunge and walk down the aisle and say I DO at the top of my lungs to that good looking better half of mine!!!

Me in a year, only far more chunkier!!!
Yup, head first into a free fall is where I am going and I have to tell you that sky diving into the unknown is bringing up the most beautiful scenery ever!  And you know what I have to say about that: Good lord, what took me so long!

Until Next Time.




  1. So many awesome things. I'm so excited for you... on all fronts!

  2. Oh, Tracy, that's wonderful! All of it! About time you saw what we all see in you- and feel good enough to enjoy it!

  3. good for you, trace! love, hugs, and happiness to you!

  4. Michelangelo didn't think his work was good enough, along with Van Gogh and other art luminaries. You're in excellent company. Go out there and seize your moment.

  5. I was wondering about the wedding when you posted something on 500 days of happiness about an unconventional wedding dress. Good for you! I'm glad you found your happy!

  6. You make me happy that you are so happy. There's nothing but good things on your road ahead. You just glow with all that positiveness.

  7. *hugs you so tightly you can't breathe* You sound so freaking chipper, I love it! So glad you are just plain happy with everything. :D

  8. I'm smiling for you and with you as I read your post today. Your positive, exciting energy leaps off the screen; I am so truly happy for you.

    There's nothing more delightful than reading about your joy and happiness; you deserve them both...and much more.

    With smiles and hugs, Jenny

  9. This post is just great. It's about time you open an online shop woman!. I'm really happy for you, you do sound like a completely different person, that's incredible. Can't wait to see the wedding pics. DId you guys pick a date yet?

  10. Gosh you are the nicest people ever!!!!

    Thank you thank you thank you for your incredibly kind words!!!! xoxo

  11. Many more years of joy and love and good health to you and yours! Good for you! Your photos are worthy. You are worthy. You are no Average Girl! Gosh it's good to hear from you again!

  12. About time you figured out what we have all been telling you for ages
    You are awesome and you deserve all the happiness life can bring you.
    I am so happy to have followed this journey of yours and cant wait for the wedding to happen

  13. Good for you, and by the way, life really begins at 44. Your courage and willingness to be who you really are is inspirational. Best wishes for the future.

  14. YAY!!!!!!!!!!! I am proud of you! Life is nothing if you aren't living it.

  15. You better get married when your plants are in bloom.....they are so awesome!Then you can have them in your pictures. I am glad you found you. cheers to the next 40 yrs!

  16. Oh my gosh, you guys say the greatest things, aren't I blessed! Thank you all!!!!

  17. Oh, I am so delighted for you. Joy and happiness, your two words this year, abound!! You deserve it all...and more!

  18. Tracy it couldn't be happening to a more wonderful, giggly, joyful person. So happy for you!

  19. "Yup, head first into a free fall is where I am going and I have to tell you that sky diving into the unknown is bringing up the most beautiful scenery ever!"
    It is so powerful to read such positive words like these. Thank you.
    And I'm so glad to hear that you are doing so well! Can't wait to check out your on-line store!


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