Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Slipping Away into the Winter's light...

I am tired.

And I have not been here for so long.

The sounds and the sights swirl around me, twisting, encompassing and embracing.

And I am tired.

I look over to the calendar and see that time has passed me by.  Where did it go?  Responsibilities are heavy, surgery on my mother, wedding preparations, work deadlines, the photography site and my old friend chronic pain has returned with a vengeance.

And I am tired.

I stand gazing out the window enjoying the winter scene as Father Frost has kissed the bare stricken branches and softly layered creamy ice over the glossy ponds where geese and swans once resided only a few short weeks ago.  Or was that a few months ago?  I can no longer recall.

And I am tired.

The church across from me sits idle with it's majestic cobalt blue doors silently waiting.  Tis a beautiful sight with it's snow frosted roof and it's empty pews beckoning for Christmas Eve when it will be full of life.

And I am tired.

I hear on the radio that hauntingly beautiful song for a winters night.  It makes me melancholy and I sigh and take a few moments of solace but then snap back to reality as work is frantically busy and I do not have the time to waste as everybody wants resolution to their matters now.

And I am tired.

Christmas is upon us and I had to do everything in October and November that one does in December for preparation of my mother's recent surgery and it is the last month of the season and I still have yet to recover from all the frenzy.

And I am tired.

I miss this place.  This place to write and read and connect with like minds.  I miss it so much, but I can scarcely breathe and am surviving on three hours sleep a night.

And I am tired.

I take a few moments to jot down my thoughts and watch thru my office window as daylight fades to a soft sweet hazy grey.  And in that brief moment, I close my eyes and dream while I quietly slip away into the winter's light hoping for just a few moments of respite.

But even at that, I am still unfortunately tired...

I miss you all.  I think of you often and I hope you and your family are well.  

I wish you a lovely and peaceful Christmas surrounded by those that fill your heart with joy.

Be safe.

Until Next Time.