Tuesday, June 19, 2012

PASSION FOUND!


It’s hard to believe that a year ago I was wandering aimlessly around my neighbourhood screeching, calling, sobbing and searching for my Passion. I pleaded for her return and spent countless hours nailing up posters all around the town with a reward if found. The only things that contacted me were Self Dwelling, Self Indulgence and Self Serving whom happily offered to become a permanent part of my life, and all of which I luckily had turned down. Passion you see, had skipped town, and rightfully so. She had tired of me and my lacklustre shine and found another more worthy of her gifts.

I was at a loss and I had become lost. Without her, I was just a shell of a former girl I once knew as Tracy.

I had all but given up on Passion and found myself at a quandary and crossroads in life drinking my sorrows away with yet another whipped cream-filled hot chocolate, that was heavy on the whipped cream, light on the actual drink. I sat there one day sobbing over Passion when I came to the realization that I could continue to sit on my beaten up, dog smelling and man farting couch eating day old soggy-in-butter popcorn, or I could get off my lily white, cellulite stricken ass and do something about it! I have to tell you that I had a mere moment where sitting among fart smelling cushions at one point seemed like a viable option. Thankfully, I picked the latter.

It started in January with a simple art course, that I sucked at, followed by intense walking to get my legs in shape for Italy, followed by taking a zillion photos, followed by friends telling me to do something with them, followed by my mother kicking me and my rather large ass straight into being juried before a selection committee, and finally, being accepted into an art exhibition!

And here I am today, a year later, a year happier, a year of new experiences, a year more adventurous, and a few days away from putting myself and my photographs out there to be judged. And somewhere along the way, I have grown. I have finally accepted that I am much more than that Average Girl who started this blog two years and two months ago. My life isn’t average, it never was. It was just missing joy. And perhaps excitement. Definitely adventure and confidence. But mostly passion.

And you know what, it doesn’t really matter what Friday brings to me at the art exhibition. The only thing that matter is:

that thankfully, my beloved passion was found.

Until Next Time.

Tracy

21 comments:

  1. Thank you thank you thank you. I needed this joy today.
    I am sitting on my couch feeling a little lost and a little Vanilla and not sure why.
    My passion is a bit AWOL at the moment but it will be back I am sure.
    Oh and you have never ever ever just been average. You have always been awesome

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  2. i'm glad you've taken on new adventures this year and found yourself anew.
    i hope you do great in the exhibit and no matter what the judges have to say, i hope you will be pleased with yourself and the experience.

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  3. I'm glad you found it again. Now maybe you can direct mine homeward. I think its close, but with our plant closing its taken a real beating.

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  4. Yay! You've inspired me to find my own passion!

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  5. Thank you thank you thank you guys!!!! And Mynx, I think your passion is just hiding out trying to get away from the man flu at home and Sherilin darlin, i have seen your passion rearing up tons lately, possibly that new amazing bod you are sporting, what the heck Chris... I am so sorry about your plant closing, i hope you and everyone close to your life is going to be okay? If I can help you in any way, please let me know! And middle child, you go girl!!!! And come back and tell me all about it!!!

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  6. I agree, you were never average, but now you're borderline awesome. What I like most about your photos is that they represent everyday objects and places, but they look so...I don't know how to describe the feeling I get when I see them, exotic and warm, almost as if there's a message in them. I'm sure you'll do great on Friday, cause your passion sure come through your photos!

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  7. Good luck with your art exhibit. I'm so glad you found your passion.

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  8. This gives me hope that I might find mine again.
    Good luck with the exhibit! I'm sure it will be great! :)

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  9. Hello! I'm so happy to hear that you have found your passion...it was there all the time, just waiting for the right moment! Good luck with the Art Show, it takes so much to enter your photos. Consider yourself a winner just to be a part of a juried show!! You are awesome!!!

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  10. You guys are all so wonderful, thank you so much!!!

    And Alex, that has to be one of the nicest compliments I have ever received on my photos!

    Thank you all!!!! xoxo

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  11. YAY for the exhibition!!!!!!! *give standing ovation with a bug "whooooooooo!!"*

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  12. tee hee! I love ya J.Day, you're the best!!!!

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  13. Tracy, it makes me sad we live so far apart. Dang it. It is wonderful to see you finding your joy. Can you help me find mine? LOL So happy for you and good luck this weekend. You will be fantastic because YOU ARE FANTASTIC.

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  14. You guys are all so lovely!!! Thank you so much and Sue, does it help if I say you make me happy with all your funny facebook statuses my friend!!!

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  15. Congratulations on finding your passion!! I've also discovered my passion for photography in the past year so I know what an awesome feeling it is. When I started my blog I knew I liked taking photos but now I'm obsessed! Good luck at the exhibition!! Sounds like fun and a wonderful opportunity to have your art recognized.

    (btw...are you comfortable being called a "photographer" yet? Or having your photos referred to as "art?" People use those terms on me and it's a HUGE compliment but then I'm like "I'm a photog? An artist? What? When did that happen" (LOL) Wondered if it was just me? ;)

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  16. Thank you Jenn June!!! I think I will always refer to myself as "picture taker" LOL!!!! That's about as close as I can come to photographer!!!

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