Thursday, December 30, 2010

LIFE AS I DREAM IT

And so ends another Christmas season safely tucked away into my closet of treasures and an old year filed away within the confines of my mind.  I ended 2010 by sitting down at the ocean with my better half guzzling back steaming hot chocolates and toasting the fact that we had somehow survived.  In one of my more cornier moments of life and not one for ritualization, I closed my eyes and inhaled the crisp winter wind and visualized letting go of any unpleasant memories of 2010 while holding onto the moments that touched my heart and made me grow as a person. From sadness to happiness, from being house bound to road trips, 2010 had it's share of every emotion imaginable.  And I am happy to let it slip away.

And now begins the beauty of a new year, fresh with no mistakes, well not yet anyways, and I am embracing it with my fingers crossed and my eyes wide open.

January always instills this feeling of urgency and anxiousness in me.  I am sure that it has something to do with spring around the corner.  New life coming forward, plants bursting forth, freshness, sweetness, and in my humble opinion, nature at its best.  I cannot wait to go outside, breathe in the air, stick my hands in the earth and connect. Perhaps, a tad crazy, but a new year brings me hope that life will finally go as planned, with no bumps or hiccups along the way. Yes a delusional thought at best.

I feel the need to make plans for my year and I sit and doodle on my calendar with the hopeful anticipation that "this year" might be the year we finally go to Italy.  "This year" might be the year I make more time for me.  "This year" might be the year I spend more time being adventurous. "This year" might be the year I am more spontaneous. And "this year" might be My Year.

I sit dreamily in January planning the next 11 months of my life, and realizing at the end of the year, that nothing had gone as planned. On my road of life, I tend to be easily distracted and end up going down side roads that lead to dead ends.  It would be a bust for me, if it wasn't so much fun hitting all those metaphorical potholes along the way.

In any event, I can tell you that this Average Girl is ready. And whatever 2011 has in store for me, it will be all good, because My Life can be exactly as I dream it, well as long as I stay off those pesky side roads.

All the best to you in 2011.



17 comments:

  1. I love your writing!Can't wait to see what all you come up with in 2011! This post pulled at my heartstrings. It should be printed out for me to read on a daily basis. You are awesome inspiration! Happy 2001 to YOU.

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  2. Oh dear lady.....I try and stay off those pesky side roads....but the Highway sometimes......is not much fun!! (O:(O:

    All the best to you in 2011,

    Jo

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  3. Awesome - I agree with Misti. I dig your writing and look forward to it!

    Maybe someday you'd consider guest blogging on my site? I'd clean the place up for you a bit first of course.

    SD
    simpledudecomplexworld.blogspot.com

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  4. Awww thank you guys and, SD, I would be honoured!

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  5. I hope 2011 is really good to you!

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  6. What is life without a few potholes?

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  7. Loved this post. I hope 2011 is wonderful for you and goes exactly as you dream it!

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  8. "I closed my eyes and inhaled the crisp winter wind and visualized letting go of any unpleasant memories of 2010" --I loved this part! Ridding ourselves of the toxic and opening ourselves to what is to come is therapeutic! All the best to you in 2011! I can't wait to read more of your words! And I'm sending you a great big hug as well! :)

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  9. Tracy, some of my best adventures have been the side roads, bumps and all. At the end is usually something beautiful, even if your butt is bruised and the car dirty.

    I love the way you are opening yourself to the new year and all it brings. I cant wait to share it with you.

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  10. a belated Merry Christmas! and a Very Happy New Year to you! Wishing you a year of pleasant experiences and dreams that come true. I love to read your posts, always delightful and always with a good bit of wisdom. I'm thankful to have found you, dear friend.

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  11. And to you good wishes! May you have a dream of a year!

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  12. I hope you go to Italy! It is so wonderful..the little towns are just so calming and glorious..the big towns are full of art and history and grandeur!

    Try and go:) Happy New Year~

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  13. I loved this post. I feel much the same way at the beginning of the year. It's like a blank canvas, ready to be painted on. I really do hope you can go to Italy this year, actually, I was thinking that if you do manage to go, I would love to meet you over there (if I can) and show around. Well, at least Rome anyway. It would so much fun.

    Anyway, my dear, I hope you have a great New Year. I look forward to reading your adventures on those pesky side roads....

    p.s. I made my blog open to everyone agai, I'll explain on the post. :)

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  14. There are side roads that don't dead end, so may you find only those; and may only the bumps and hiccups that add spice to the mix find their way into your life. Please make more time for you...good things often cannot find their way to your address unless you do. Happy New Year, dear friend.

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  15. Happy New Year! And you're not the only one to dream and hope that this new year will bring everything you wanted :)

    Hazel xxx

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  16. Well said Tracy! You got me on hot chocolate on the beach :) You are a wonderful writer with so many insightful tid bits...the kind that make me think of all the possibilities out there. I send you best wishes Tracy for a wonderful year...I hope it is filled with all the things you hope for. Never give up the dream my friend, you just never know :)xx

    Jeanne

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  17. What a wonderful post. It makes me look at the upcoming year from a different perspective, so thank you. Here's to a fantastic 2011, and I hope you do finally make it to Italy!

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